Chansu

When you're wary of me, yet you'll give me a chance, that says something.

Destiny is kind of funny. It'll put people together despite their best efforts if it thinks it should. I'm not implying it is right or wrong, just that it is what it is.

I'm running a risk. If I like Diana more than she likes me, be it more than she does, will, wants to, and/or would, then I can wind up... well, wound up.

Call me crazy, ("You're crazy!") but I'm going to chance it myself.

Make fun of me all you want. Think to yourself "what an idiot."

But consider this: I'm after a soulmate. I'm after love and the feeling of being loved. That sits under my "girl motivation". It's why I tend to like friend-girls and want to make them my girlfriends instead of just hitting on the nearest available chick. Because if you're already friends, there's a rapport. There's a level of trust there. There's a pre-existing clause of honesty. I've got trust issues, too... and in that case I've abandoned them.

The question, then, becomes: What kind of idiot would see a potential destiny and choose to ignore it because he's afraid?

Somehow, that's still me.

I'm looking to garner courage. Courage to ignore the fear and plow through. And it's not like I'm a bad guy, either. I'll be good for her. So, I opened a box marked "do not open until March 2013" and found some courage and I'm gonna be me. I hope that box wasn't important. Hmm... who is Pandora, anyway?

Heh, look at me trying to justify how I've got a date with Diana tonight. Well I do. And I'm glad. I'm glad she's going to give me a chance to show myself.