Even More Tarot

You know, this is kind of fun. This will be a weekly thing for me, methinks. I'd like to get a celtic cross done, but, that costs money. Or I have to kidnap a best friend and put her in a room with me with a table covered in a red felt tablecloth. Maybe with a few candles and a crystal ball, because those are kind of cool. One or the other.

Oh, come on. It's spring again. AGAIN! Motherfuckers. Wasn't spring like two hours ago? Fucking rising sap. DIE DIE DIE!

*ahem*

Tonight's tarot. This time, with commentary! Think of it as getting the DVD version. Without the cool collector shit. But, sorry, still carries the extra cost.

I will expect my check within 7 days of invoice.

how you feel about yourself now
(The Hermit) You may be feeling lonely at this time or going through a period of introspection. If you are struggling to find answers to your questions give it time, they will come. This is a time for prudence and patience. If you have been unwell this is a time for rest and recuperation.
Well duh. How about I forget about getting answers to my questions in the interests of dumping prudence and patience? The one thing I HATE the most is failing when I am clearly capable of success and still try my best. But this hermit fellow's got the feelings down.

what you most want at this moment
(The Chariot) The cards suggest Erik, that what you most want at this time is success, to win and not give up the fight. You are successful and assertive in most things, or if you haven’t quite got the success you want, you will get it. This is a time of movement and change - expect a journey relating to work, or if you want that car you’ve been looking at, go get it.
Journey relating to work? You bet. I'm working in a new location considerably closer to where I like being. And you're damn skippy "MOST" things. But what I most want is completely nailed here: to win it all. How's that E-rotic song go? "Winner takes it all / Loser has to fall." Ahhh... well... not all their songs are winners.

your fears
(The Hierophant) Are you really your best counsel? Probably not at this moment in time. You are worried that you will sell yourself short and agree to something that you don’t feel morally comfortable with. For example you may really desire marriage but the offer has been ‘let’s live together’. You may be looking at a job or business opportunity but you question how ethical it is. Seek out an advisor you can trust such as a teacher, priest, parent or anyone you have respect for. They will be happy to help.
I feel I'd been slightly deceived recently, partially relating to something I don't feel morally comfortable with (take that judgement cape off: it's spring as discussed above). I'm not terribly upset about it, it's just that when I think pessimisticly about something, I'd rather not be correct. And I do feel as though lately my self-advisement hasn't really been on the ball. If you know me, and odds are you do, you know I prefer to make my mistakes so long as it was my fault for making them. It's just plain lame to make mistakes because you followed someone elses's advice.

what is going for you
(The Lovers) New love and commitment will enter your life, even if there’s no one on the horizon - be prepared for a surprise. Throw caution to the wind and expect joyous and happy times ahead.
Uh-huh. That's what you said last time. Although, if last time was valid only until this new reading, I guess you could say I did find a new love. A friend has just broken through the barrier where now I love them. It's a platonic, friendly love, but it absolutely is love in which one takes joy in the other's joys, and pain in the other's pains. And to think I thought it was just a silly crush, but it evolved into something rather nice. I do think, also, that this same PFL is returned.
(aren't you glad I didn't call it "friendly, platonic love"? FPL would be confusing.)

what is going against you
(The Emperor) You may be over ambitious at this time, success may remain just out of your reach for a while. Are you being assertive and positive enough? Or are you using aggressive, bullying tactics to no avail? Do not mis-use your authority or if you have requested help from a strong, successful man don’t let him bully you - he either helps or leaves you to get on with things yourself.
Manx is confused! Sounds to me as though the reading up to this point is rather depressing. I'll be agressive and ambitious but it's excessive, I want to be successful, but I'll be stopped cold. I wanna music!

outcome
(The Tower) A period of dramatic change and upheaval, however this period of change will herald a new beginning. It is time to re-evaluate - sometimes, as difficult as the disappointment has been to take, change can create new possibilities you never dreamed of. There could be problems relating to your property, or if considering a new property or move, progress will be thwarted.
Oh dear.