Slavery

Maybe "slavery" is too harsh a word. Indentured servitude?

For the most part I'm being left alone now. I just had to cook a bunch of times this week, run errands, you know. I'm dreading the fight we're going to have when one of the bills gets in that's been part of the Manx Tax.

I slept for like 14 hours today. I'm not sick. I guess it's what they call "clinically depressed". But I feel ok, though. I guess that's what the "clinically" is for. Kind of like how someone would say "technically illegal" when referring to someone who steals bread to feed his family.

At least there won't be anyone really watching me closely for the next week. I hope to use to productively to get work. I don't know how much playtime I'll be able to get in there. All I know is that today I made a HELL of a ham and that should shut everyone up for a while.

Of course, the house still smells of ham. It's probably a good thing, actually. Then whenever I'm about to get hassled I could just go: "Hey, doesn't it smell like HAM in here?!"

Well, with nothing really going on in my life right now I havn't much to say. I'm still learning OpenGL, though. It's hard as FUCK. The basics are hard because I just don't know my matrix math like I used to know it. The medium level is hard because I don't know the names of important things and they aren't exactly intuitive (like, somehow, "glEnable(GL_COLOR_MATERIAL)" somehow makes colored (not textured) polygons obey lighting rules. As opposed to "glEnable(GL_COLOR_OBEYS_LIGHTS)" or something I can search for. The hard stuff is hard because, unlike DirectX which makes new features and functions easy to find just because of the nature of the COM interface, OpenGL has to stay backwards compatible to, say, 1885, and now not only do I have to know obscure constants but now I need to know obscure function names and the parameters and dynamically figure out where they are in the library, if they're there at all (which they don't have to be) and all sorts of other bits of nonsense.

Thankfully, FMOD is DAMN easy to use. Very few problems getting it going. Too bad I have to spend so much time looking for work that, now that I don't have work to do, I don't have the free time to do this.

Ironic, isn't it?

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