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I'll admit, I don't write as often as I used to.

I'm in a foul mood right now, so now's as good a time as any. My voice is finally non-scratchy and I can go a little bit without coughing. Time to celebrate. I sound different so I decided to leave an obscene message for Su. Why? I dunno, that's the thing with jokes. It's not some grandiose effort and planning event, it's, you know, just a joke.

So I leave this message this morning and when I was done I felt bad. Not for what I had done, but for how it was done. Bad form, not nearly explicit enough, not even an "Ung" sound that I figured it HAD to have while I was dialing. Off the top of my head, you know? I even ended it with a sunny "BYE!" so I'm like, aw, man, I totally blew it. And it's with reason. I mean, it's SU, I can't really summon raw lust on command when it comes to her. I can barely keep a straight face about it thinking of it, if at all.

By noon I get a message that she got a weird message. I text her back that I did it and then she told me not to ever do it again because she was ready to call the cops. Uh... wut?

So I screwed up because, evidently, she thought she was being stalked for a while. Well, ok, shit happens. But my apology isn't enough now, and I needed to be more understanding. Like, how? What's the benchmark?

There is no reasoning with a mad woman, gents. NONE. And to think I was snickering to myself all morning.